a little awkwardly, with some degree of uncertainty, or even can, but I'll try. For myself in particular. I need that much again. Writing brings out the inner man that which it sits. Lets look at the "links" leading to the space situation, thoughts, feelings and emotions with a huge amount of content. It is not in a position to transmit everything that constitutes the so-called spiritual experience or spiritual man. All this is just some traffic. For more takes time, intimacy, friendship, courage ... and this is not a able (even from themselves) to give everything. Years ago a professor asked me to defend my thesis, whether or not to write "Diaries." I replied in the affirmative. I'm still convinced to do so. So I'll try again. For myself. First of all for myself.
snow outside the window. Yes, snow. For several months I was in Poland. At own request. I needed a change. I felt that it was time. And even though the previous stage of the unfinished, yet it was time. After two months in Galicia, I found myself unexpectedly in Lower Silesia. I'm trying to get in the mentality and the life of my homeland after several years of separation. I'm trying to enter into new obligations, which is probably again (it's) a lot. Among them are the ones that I like, but there are some that cost a lot of stress and tension, and do not necessarily give a sense of fulfillment and satisfaction. Returning to the back ... But a little bit, maybe very different left Poland in September 2002. Even when I came here for a shorter or longer times, it seemed to me that is the same. Now I see how much has changed. I do not know whether for good. I guess I'm trying to find myself in all this. Increasingly, I repeat the words of the Psalm: "It is good for me, O Lord, thou hast humbled me," ... too much ... looking for myself, I'm looking for others. People, a man who thinks like me, it feels like me, has a philosophy similar to my world. No, I'm not talking now about a friendship. A lot could himself on this plane powyrzucać. I think of someone who with similar features and look, he would support. A lot has changed. In our catholicity too, oh!
But I have this belief that I find myself behind. I feel the need for silence, a regular presence in the space of her loneliness. I'm getting stronger conviction that there is nothing I can do without listening to the words, without silence of adoration. In November, I went for a few days retreat to one of the houses behind the walls of Jasna Gora. Since I do not remember when, getting up an hour before 6 am to go to Jasna Góra chapel. It was unusual about this as though early hour, I met a large group of people of all ages who came either on the first Mass., Or to confession. I looked at it in the context of my reflection on our faith and catholicity. I thought that despite the changes, development, attacks, praise, etc. at Jasna Gora is still the same as the 600, 300, 100, 10 years ago ... people refuse to "Hail Mary", confess, take Holy Communion., Pass around on their knees Mother's altar. I continue. And they were, and this place, and Poland. Then I discovered that in all this is something really my own, something that I lost years ago ... Getting up at 6 am to klasztorku, "Hail Marys," a simple faith ... Some mysterious source of strength. Difficult to explain such a fence, simply, in our narcissistic or celebrytycznej reality. But it is getting up early and praying - it works!
do not change the title of the blog. Although my "today" is far from Romolo, it is left there a part of themselves. And I will always fondly back there. It was a good time! May and this was not worse! I hope ...!
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